Life Update & Blog Hiatus
Hi everyone! It’s been a while since I posted on my blog and I thought that I should at least make a post explaining my hiatus, and let you know what’s going on with me…
At the beginning of the year, my husband and I separated. He moved out, I’ve been looking for a job (since I’ve been a stay-at-home mom for over 7 years), we’re preparing to sell our house and are in the prep stages of a divorce. It’s been hard, but thankfully, it’s been a really cordial separation. I’m actually doing really well, although it hasn’t always been so great.
20 years ago, when I was 17, I heard the term “bisexual” and knew that was me. I knew I wasn’t *just* attracted to boys and I gladly took up that label. And that’s how I’ve identified for the past 20 years. 10 years after taking up the bi label, I was married to a man, but I never really had much experience with women. Over the course of my marriage, I began to realize that things just weren’t quite right, even though I was telling myself that everything was fine. And then I finally realized that no, I’m not fine, I’m not bi–I’m gay. I came out publicly a month ago today, and my life has been so different yet so fulfilling. I feel free to be myself, to walk in my identity with pride, even though many bigots have come out of the woodwork in recent years. I’ve been seeing a really awesome woman, and she makes me so happy. And I’m just so happy to be myself.
But my life is still kind of chaotic at the moment. I still haven’t found a job (although I have an interview next week! Fingers crossed!), we’re still in the process of selling our house, and money is tight. Unfortunately, I’m not going to be able to attend BookExpo America this year. I was really looking forward to going again after a couple years of having to sit out, but I just can’t afford it right now. Hopefully next year I’ll be able to go, but who knows what will be going on then? My life has changed so much in the past 4 months, I have no clue what it will look like in over a year.
But I do know that I want to continue this blog, as much as I am able to. I love it, I love the community, and I love that my identity includes “book blogger.” I’ve been blogging for over 5 years now and I don’t want to stop. But my life is still pretty hectic and uncertain, so I’m not sure how much content I’ll be able to put on here right now. Hopefully I can get back into the swing of things really soon!
And I just want to say thank you to all of my followers and friends who have been with me over these 5 years (or longer). I appreciate all the support and love you’ve shown me over the years. And I hope that I am able to return that love and support to all of you, ten fold.
Wishing you happiness and 5-star books,